Missing him...

Have you been hurt before? I mean nothing bout being heartbroken in love or any of those crap..really hurt..the feeling of losing some1 who means the world to you..i did. so  bloody hurt tht the only thing i pray day and night is to be crazy..coz i feel crazy ppl are happy in their own world...right? Don't you think so?dad..I friggin miss you..this is the first Ramadan without you...n it makes me regret being alive at this moment..I passed my osce exam... .but ur not here to see...I miss ur childhood song...I wish u could see what kind of person I m...I think im great..im smart..close to perfect..all thanx to you. .I dont care if anyone reading this think im bragging..this is fact of life..Lastly my fav quote. .living in this city full of fools..im bornt perfect..u know why? Coz my dad is 1 hell of a great man ever..like..ever...

Losing Daddy...

Life is so unpredictable...you might be laughing ur ass out today n d next day u might be crying so hard tht its so hard breath...thts what happened to me...i remember clearly tht night...me n my frenz were crazy..recorfing our version of harlem shake..really enjoyed ourselves like typical teenagers...it was so normal..went to bed tht night n slept off...then the phone rang at 5am..its frm daddy..theyre suppose to go bck kuala lumpur tht day frm jakarta..they went for holliday..i was pissed off obviously..who dare to disturb me sleeping.. my sister was on th line..i thought they forgot their booking number or something..she asked me where was i n all..i still was blurr..n i scolded her..then she say it...'meen..abba(daddy) is in icu..pls come now'..i cud barely hear her in tears..i start breathing heavily...no words could describe how i felt...i asked wat happened n all..but i still cudnt believe my ears..its like..nahh..this cant happen to me..not me..not my abba..i took 8am flight to jakarta...my heart was aching so damn bad..i was praying so hard...then i arrived in d hospital..i saw abba lying there...thats the worst sight ever...just last week we were bullying each other...laughing...playing..now hes there lying..wth is this...why? I really cant hold myself any longer...i just cry out loud...i was too depressed..can u believe it..thts my dad over there!! Not other guy..my dad..its too devastating tht moment...my fmly calmed me down..he was in coma...we brought him bck to malaysia n hes been hospitalized there..every1 came..calming me down..but hey u guys know it wont work...vr talking bout my dad here..the only guy ive loved in my life.. my hero..the man who treat me like a princess..how m i suppose to live...i was praying so hardly for a miracle to happen..but of coz miracles doesnt exist..he passed away after 17 days...by tht time ive already thought of giving up mh evrything..my studies..my life..but then wat will happen to mom..n its my dad's dream to see all his 3 angels to b doctors..trust me tht my only reason living...ive been cutting myself..it makes me happy..yea call me crazy...its been 1 month plus..n im much stronger now..in fact i am a strong girl to start with...ill b there for my mum n sis..ill cheer every1 around me with my smile n laughter n crazyness...no1 wud have any slightest idea tht im actlly very hurt deep inside..i miss him every single day...every1 has to go one day. Its my dad's turn now..next mite be me..or you..ull nvr know...

Doodlezz 2012..Heyy heyyy 2013!

Its 31.12.12...No words to describe how happy and glad i feel.ive been waiting for this day since...god knows when...Heres my farewell sayings for 2012...just get the fuck off...u treated me the worst..ur siblings ( 2011..2010..etc) were nicer to me...who made me loose soo many valuable things..n also ppl..huh!!! a year full with depression...just glad its d end..wonder wat 2013 has to offer me...just dont be mean n harsh like 2012 pls..i dowana go through these shitz nomore..pls pls pls God...make things easier for me...light up my world alrdyyy...i wana enjoy every bit of 2013..pleaseee....bring me all the joy n happiness tht i missed this year..n owh i wana be a billionaire :D n a HOT bf...pls n thank you..but but..most of all..i want to be happy with my family..dowana loose any of them...n then of coz my studies...give me good CGPA..i just wana graduate medical school okayy..im not asking for 4 flat..hmm watelse..owh ya..im so fat..give me the will power to loose weight n be pretty..:)) Nitezzz...x0

P/S - 2012 will NOT be remembered..i shall remove the unwanted memories of events...pplz..n blablabla..

Memoirs of 2012 part 2..

Ive always have this imagination of inspiring ppl and make a diffrence in their life...just a tiny bit wud do..but how?? i dont think im good enough..thts why i like to share my life stories..things tht happened to me and stuffz..so that ppl around the world could read and be inspired as well..So yeah..lets continue what happened after June...as i said evryting was just right..MALAYSIA was right..i cudnt ask for any more hapiness..n yeah during tht time i passed my driving n start driving around..almost got myself n parents killed few times..but i guess was being blessed all the time..the best part was when i accidently hit a  mercedes..not a big bang or wat..its just more like a scratch (huge one actlly) when i was trying to park my car..i thought it would fit in...but well..i proofed myself wrong :) hahaha..thank god no1 was looking...i just grab some stuffz in 7E n buzz off like a boss..of coz i apologize to god n felt guiltyy..thts enough rite..i DID felt guilty after all..holidays ended n i went bck to indonesia starting new semester with new spirit....went bck again to Malaysia 4 my beloved sister's engagement....when im bck things were quite fine..untill i sprained my ankle 1 day..it hurts like shit...swelled up like nobody's bussiness..cudnt walk properly for about 1 week? apply some medication then the swelling went off...after 2 weeks i went bck AGAIN :D since i had quite some days off..i realized something wen i was there..my ankle still hurts abit when i bend it.. it was like 3 weeks since i sprained it..so i went to do Xray n found out i had a chip fracture n i gotta cement it...i dont mind doing tht but how d hell m i suppose to move..i have a flight to catch tht night and an exam on the next day..n my awesome uni was under construction..i gotta climb till d 3rd floor..with stairs! no elevator..so i told tht to d dr n suggest him tht cud i just use an elastic band instead...i literally beg for d xray since its not suppose to be gven to patients...thank god he knows my dad n he knows imma medical student n im gonna need it when im bck..he suggest me to give the xray to a dr here in indonesia n seek for some alternative advise..i was like fine fine i will..but of coz i didnt..i chose to CURE myself with my way..n yea i did xD yeayy mee..it was my bday after tht..simple celebration..before tht something else happened..my bestfren left..theres 4 of us since d 1st day of uni..nothing can come between us..of coz all the others bitches about us..saying vr too modern n stuffz but who cares,,not to brag but vr like million times better thn thm lifeless shits..then she fell in love...with the wrong guy..the guy who wants her to change who she is...the guy who treats her like shit...n the guy who thinks we are bad influence on her...the guy who have no respect on women n their frienship...he doesnt give a shit on his studies..his grades were below stupidity..and all he does is racing with his damn bike which he claims THE BEST with all d bad locals..seriously i dont WOW bikes unless its ducati or harley davidson..so yeahh.. she left for him..it seems we cudnt understand her..thts wat she thinks..she cant see tht we wre just protecting her frm tht monster..we don want her to get hit again..she deserves some1 better...any1 just not him..hmmm..anyway..past is past...im pretty much happy with my life now..3 of us..like how it was during college times...so after this losing a bestie incident life was more peaceful..untill of  coz life will nvr let me live in peace so long..i lost my atm!! AGAINNN!!! for d 2nd time...but this time i din lost any cash..n i know wat i had to do...i settled things quite smoothly..as i said..let the past teaches u a lesson n definitely it did(except 4 d part of me being careless all d time..gotta deal with tht soon) after all these..i went for a vacation with my frens..was a really good 1..n here i am now..writing this blog..telling stuffz bout watever happened to me..din went bck for xmas this time since ive been going bck quite often...n gotta prepare 4 my finalz cmg up..wish me luck peepzz..i surely gonna need tht..X0X0

P/S - so the world din end afterall....like duhhh~~ isnt it obvious enuff it wont..not anytime soon m sure..HAPPY HOLLIDAYS! n HAPPY NEW YEARR

Memoirs of 2012...

So its been quite some time eyh...no worries im alive..been busy with my stuffz..wat u expect..im a medical student afterall..gotta study extra hard...okay im bluffing..just tht im lazy to type out wat was going on actlly...trust me...ALOT had happened to me since my last post...id say this year is just too fucked up to me...lost so many things...including 1 of my bestie 4 2 years...yes..its tragic..she din die or wat..don get that wrong..well lets see..i began 2012 happily..was my cousin's wedding...was bck in my beloved country..evrything went wrong in February..i lost a very important immigration document to stay in the country im studying..its some staying permit..since then it was hell...very simple process but the people here makes things very tough..why wudnt them..things runs in this country by corruption..trust me..i know..i went through enough to realise tht...when i went to the police they said something n when i went to the immigration they said something else..there was me..all alone in this HUGE country..clueless..i tried asking help frm the comitee frm my campus..from their answer..i definitely know tht i cant count on them.. i gotta do this myself..after about 3 months struggling...going up n down bck to the immigration office..wasting my money 4 transportation (noted i don have my own vehicle..imma student..!)..getting scolding n treated like a dog..everything was over..i settled evrything...by that time theres nomore tears left in me..nomore emotions..a week after tht i lost my atm card..n some1 took out quite an amount of cash frm it..can u imagine me tht time?? i sure have no idea how to react...i just smiled n look up...nice 1 god...went to the bank n the officer said i gotta do police report..i was thinking  hell no..i just went there few weeks bck n gotta go again..theyll think im high on alcohol or something for being too careless all the time...and then..the bank officer kinda stare rite to my eyes..i was quite uncomfortable tht time of coz..i don fancy ppl loooking straight into my eyes for more than 5 secs..then some miracle happened..d officer said..u dont need to do police report..ill settle things for you..looks like uve been quite some hell..n ur a girl in a foreignland..must be tough...i was speechless..i swear thats the best words ive heard in my life..yeapp..better thn ppl complimenting me! n better than me scoring for my national exam..after 2 weeks i got bck my atm...and after tht was my sem break..june 14 if im not mistaken..went bck to my country..n thts when i released evrything..shopping like mad...relax like a boss..i started picking up my smiling scills bck..n my little niece was  bornt...i was just too glad evrything was over...at tht time...looking bck wat happened 3 months plus before i bcame more determined...n matured..i know how to handle stuffz..n 1 thing for sure..i became a much stronger person...stronger than ever..n independent..i trust myself..my ability..n im very proud of myslef..3 months sounds just a short time..but when i was going through it..felt like years..centuries maybe..n i realised something else..in this fucked up world im living in...with all bloody selfish ppl around me..there are good ones..who will understand ur pain n lend a shoulder...never judge a community/country by a wholesome..there always good ones and bad ones...thou most of the ppl i meet here are racist but there are good ones tht make this world easier 4 me to live.. So yea thts more like it for d 1st half of 2012...more to come in my 2nd post..cheerz :*

When things get hard...

Woahhh...been a long time since i updated my blog..well..been buzy with studies n problems...seriously..this year have been relly hard on me..got into a major problem due to my carelessness...since 23rd feb..n till now...nothing has been settled yet...im stuck waiting for something to b done...goshh..this is relly hard...i just hope...this will end in a good way...i can wait...but i just want everything to b ok at d end of d day...evry1s telling its alrite...will b fine..cheer up..but i doont need tht..i dont need every1 to say how gr8 things wud work on me..i just need 1 person to prove tht evrything is okay...Im just praying to God to solve things for me coz Hes d only 1 can help me...i know its all my fault..i deserve everything....ive learnt my lesson...hwaaaa~~  :'(


p/s - id rather get dumped 100x then being in dis situation of mine..hmmm..pray for me too

How 2011 treated me??

I started 2011 wid puke...lotz of puke...was feeling sick...remmber my dad took me n my sisters out n went 2 dis resort...yeah at freakin 12 am!! was awesome...some show was going on...but their food finished..:/ n v were super starving...so dad brought us 2 dis shop n ordered lamb chop...chicken chop..n much more..was feeling sick alredy but who cares..i wont get this foods in medan! so yeah..i wallup nicely n the next thing i ran 2 d bathroom n puked...but then i wasnt done...i still wanna eat! n 4 d 2nd time i ran 2 d bathroom but this time..there dis old man gonna enter d toilet..i told him i feel like puking n i cant hold..but he din care..bloody bastard...the next thing when he came out..ive alredy finish puking in front of d  toilet door!! he was like...err n she puked! so after tht,...i sit down 4awhile...but looking at d others eating..i just cant take it...n guess wat...rite b4 i left..i went bck 2 toilet...but it was locked! n i look at d floor...nomore my puke...i  feel bad 2 just vomit again..pity the ppl alrdy cleaned it..so i went 2 d sink...n blast out evrything...i actually caused a clogg at d sink..realizing tht...i just went off...my bad! so yeah..tht was new year...2011 was actually okay...n fun in april..june...july..the date july 14 is actually memorable...march was kinda bored...may passed quite fast..august..sept n oct was just living hell..being in medan..was so damn bored...november was reely good...enjoyed it...december past relly fast...got 2 know few new ppl...some lasted but some just poofed!! like in few days...was relly dissapointed..thts y...4 2012 i wanna b diffrent...im gonna expect less from any1..just stick 2 a  few ppl around me...thts it...n yeah..got 2 b more down 2 earth this year...n owh ya...how i ended 2011?? ended it wid tears..sending away my dearest cousin 2 her hubby..shes married..=)

P/s - i wish 2 have a serious relationship 4 dis year n get married in 6 years time! any1?^_^

New Year...New Philosophies..New Inspiraions...NEW ME!!

Its 2012!! HAPPY WORLD END YEAR! =) so yeah...as usual...evry year i have my own wishlist...things to do..n things not 2 do...but of coz...only 30% will actually happen..;) so 4 dis brand new year...things i relly wanna change bout me is..i wanna balance my devil-ness n angel-ness...last year im more towards the devils... so b4 i cud b wid d angels...i thnk i shud balance it 1st..so yeah...i wanna improve more things in me...be better...n owh ya..i wanna b more carefree towards d outer world..as in..don give a damn watever ppl say..ive always b carefree but this time even more..! have to lower my pride too..at times i think im too good..but then turns out tht im not...i hate tht feeling...so yeah...this year i shud b more serious...im 19 n gonna b 20 dis nov...long time 2 go...n most important of all..more serious n less playful..hahaha..but 1 thing i can never change...my dramass....im not yasmeen if i dont create scene evry single day...hahaha....*cheers to my life!! n cheers 4 2012

P/S  my top wishlist 4 2012 is...PLEASE DONT END THE WORLD...im so young..n im gonna have a relly bright future...hwaaa~

B0red...L0nely..n s0 s0 s0......*speechless*!!

Owh me Lord!! i seriously cant take this pressure...im so darnly bored...wat 2 do???hwaa~~~how awesoe my life used to be...=( tomm...lotz of my uni mates going bck 2 malaysia...n im stuck here! can u imagine?! wat m i suppose 2 do here without my frends...yeah..of coz..ROTT!! soooo...saddd....btw..i just realized that im a good spy..brilliant actually...!! no doubt...i heard bout some rumors going on...n i actually dig the truth out...damn proud of myself...its like how hard u try 2 cover up in fb or wat...maybe u can cheat others...but im WAYYYY to smart 4 all those bullshit! i dont understand some ppl on dis earth...if ur trying 4 some1...or maybe in a relationship wid that some1..y wud u actually hide it...just shut up n b normal...dats relly lame...like seriously..n i hate it when a guy...i mean good guy..nerd or geek or...good la..try 2 act as if he is cool n flirty...i find it relly disgusting...just b urself...y must act..at d end of d day..they doesnt react the cool way...n make things wayyy complicated...haizz..just pouring some of my thoughts....im damn bored as i told u earlier..ll_ll

Random-ness.....

well well...wat have v here...quite been a long time since i updated my blog...well..was kinda busy wid my studies n exams..n here i m today...at this very second..trying 2 figure out wat 2 write... *blank* hmm...cant think of anyting..im just gonna pour out wat im feeling ryte now...u c..ive been keeping this inside me 4 like..i  donnow...57 years??*dont mind me..im kinda obsessed wid d number 57* i cant take dis pressure anymore...i m just TOO bored here in medan...i have no idea wat 2 do..its not that theres no nice place around..there are of coz..but im alredy bored wid all the places....n hey..i have 2 b here 4 another 4.5 years...gosh! ok thats a thing...one more thing is...im just sooo lonely...compare 2 my life in KL...it was just too awesome...no1 cud imagine how gr8 it was...its like...perfect...true definition of perfect..i got wat i want...eall d attention i need...all d food i love etc etc etc...evry1 around me was just too gooodd.....until now..i cant imagine how life cud change that much! like it just rotate 180 degrees...totally! darn...evrytime i think bout dis..makes me emo n sad...i really hate my life now...seriously...no joke at all...im just too lonely...like sooo lonely...so intimidated...n the ppl around me here is just too..i donno how 2 describe...they r just...hmm...sad case...okay...i shall stop crapping now..but at least i feel relieved...now u guys shud know...how things wont last...it will either get better..or worst which in my case...nothing is permanent...have 2 live through it...

EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!

okay...dis is 1 of my awesome yet scaryyy experience ever! 4 d 1st time i experienced earthquake here in medan last tuesday if im not mistaken..on 6th sept 2011...it happened around 1am n of coz i was sleeping like an angel...i rmmbered i was in my dream..such an awesome 1..i was in carribean sunbathing..can u imagine the sun...sea n waves...suddenly out of nowhere my sis woke me up...i got shock of my life of coz..thank god my soul didnt got lost anywhere n return 2 my body..i heard ppl outside of my room running towards the gate n they sound worried...n the freakiest thing ever 4 me is when i heard the chickens..they went haywire n mad i swear! clucking as if they were attacked by some monster..i din relly felt the tremble actually...since i was in "carribean" i thought the tremble was the wave or sumthing..din know it was real..so i still din know it was an earthquake..i seriously thought it was some beast or monster attacking the chickens...i saw my sisters getting off their beds..thats when i start running to the door too..only then my sis said it was an earthquake...i was searching my flip flop but they were not there..i knew my sister took it..then i was like..screw the slippers just run! but then i was thinking who knows the situation gets bad..then how wud i suppose to walk around bare feet..so i came bck...then i rmmbered my pet,Maurice is in its huge cage in d room...but i was thinking..how to walk around carrying a cage..so humiliating ryte? n owh..i forgot 1 of my bestie in her room..i shouted her name n then she came out..then bck 2 Maurice..take it or leave it..i love my baby alot..i cant just leave my child ryte..wat kind of mother is dat! by the time i figure out wat 2 do..evrything came bck normal...so i just entered my room n straight bck 2 my bed hoping 2 continue my sunbath in carribean..but of coz din happen...~_~

My 1st Eid in Foreign Land...

okay...1st of all...i realized that ppl actually do ready my blog..i thought no1 will actually read it coz of my craps n stuffz...thanx peeps!! really appreciate u guys...n im sure by now u guys already realized that my life is full wid dramas n me humiliating myself...argghh...so yeah..including my eid celebration dis year..its the 1st time me celebrating raya in indonesia..without my family...stranded in a strange environment..but i still wanna make it a good n memorable 1..my theory is..'wherever yasmeen is being banished..shell have fun'..so yeah..that morning i wore my brand new baju raya*semangat*..i even made my frends wear baju kurong...the plan was 2 go 2 the malaysia embassy coz theres open house..so i can eat..n eat...n eat!!!!!so..off v go..n when v reached the embassy..guess wat...no celebration at all!!! its closed!! can u imagie??!! heartbroken 2 d max!! i rmmber the night b4 i was so excited 2 eat the rendang n lemang all...evrything just blown up! Feeling depressed..me n my frends went 2 d mall..coz all of the shops r closed..only in the mall v can actually find food...*weird place!* in the mall..i swear i feel like a star!! evry single eyes were on us...i was like..wat??never seen people in an 'extra unique' outfit b4 ha?? even when v sit in the cafe..ppl still turn around 2 look at us..so annoying!!..i feel like a clown..but 2 b more positive..i keep on saying 2 my frends.."they think v r the kardashians..so chill.."v spent a long time in d cafe..figuring out wat to do next..im already so depressed coz i was eating some noodles when my family bck in malaysia r eating ketupat!.i feel like running away 2 some farland!*drama mode on!* then out of nowhere..v planed 2 take a train n just travel 2 somewhere far 4rm medan...walk around n then comebck...when i say train..its not like LRR or KTM k..train like a real train..the old one...so v hopped in a cab n ask him bout the trains..costs..n scheduless...finally v made our decision 2 go to a place called Tebing Tinggi..4 hours from medan..god knows wheres that..n how is it..but yeah..v still wana go..when v reached the station...i stared at it 4 like 57 secs..it looks so.....weird..so v told d cab guy 2 wait 4 us..when i entered inside..again...the kardashians came..! evry1 turned 2 us n stared..even the kids! the train station is soooooooo packed!! n hot!!..so..ewwww....such a long queue..the train is at 4pm n its already 2pm..then i feel so rimas n pressured wid the attention!*cheh..poyo* v went bck 2 d cab..the guy was literally laughing at us! he must b thinking.."lame children.."so yeah..i was already tired n exhausted...then my sis sent an address of the open house*still havent give up wid my rendang* we went 2 d place but v have no idea where is the exact spot..v made some dramas again bcoz v were shy 2 ask the seniors..lolz..at last v asked n followed them..guess wat?? v were the only ones wearing baju kurung..evry1 were waering normal t-shirt n jeans..oh ma god!! y?? y??? y??? i cant get anymore embaressed than this ryte?! ate abit n then lepak 4 awhile..then v head bck home.....n reach home happily ever after..~The End~

Day 5 in Medan..I Survived!!! *_*

Hey heyyy...just got my internet connection here...in case u guys din know..2day wud b the 5th day im here in medan...n finally i adapted myself over here..the day i landed was relly bad..saying goodbye 2 my parents in d airport..i was relly sad..but my 3 besties was wid me...so in d other hand..i felt happy...plus im so excited 2 c my baby maurice(slow loris)..when i board the plan..i relly wished i din have 2 go back..i was tearing slightly when the lane took off..n when it landed too,..yerr...so unhappy! looking at the ppl's faces n the roads...vehicles..angkutss n becasss...damn! i felt even worst!!! but wat to..i have 2 complete my studies...another 4.5 years..hope it will pass fast! The next day i woke up..i still cant believe that im here....so do the next 2 days..but when i woke up yest...i feel much better..i mean..i can take the pressure that im here not at home!! so yeah...its relly boring here of coz...me n my frends passses time by going out 2 d mall..playing monopoly n watch movies....so yeah..typical...tomorrow is eid..n me being here..away from my family n country..is relly sad n depressing..thou i have my eldest sister n besties here..but still...the environment is diffrent! v have plans tomm...i hope i cud have a gr8 eid here..wish me luck!!

p/s - theres dis annoying chickens beside my room..n it is cuckoo-ing 24/7..can u imagine!!!! even 3am..i feel like slaughtering them alive n make rendang 4 tommorow....n owhh...almost forget the weird 'possesed' cat that meows in the middle of d nite in front of my door as if it is giving birth or wat..shock me 2 death!!! Am i supppose 2 tolerate dis madness 4 4.5 years??? goodluck to me!! @_@

There goes my plans...off 2 d trash! =(

hmmm...me n my friends have planned sumthing awesome 2 celebrate 2012 new year..gonna b a huge 1..n memorable..total awesome-ness..FUN FUN n FUN!!! v've been planning since 3 months back...n i relly look 4ward 4 it...but..unintentionally...out of nowhere..there will b sum important function during that time!! n i HAVE 2 attend it..no choice...darn~~ so depressing..imagining all the fun im suppose 2 have...all gone..not gonna happen...dis is soooo sad! i relly hope in dis week..some miracle wud happen...so they will change the date 4 the function..pleassseeee.....=(








p/s - maybe its just a sign from god 4 me 2 b good..*positive*

Latin Madness 2 : Rodrigo Guirao Diaz

This hot argentinian guy relly took me off d ground since the 1st time i saw him...hes super hot especially when he smiles..his eyes too...luv d colour...wish to marry him...thou he 12 years elder than me...^_^

Adios 1st year...2nd year..please b nice...

Done wid my 1st year in U n it had been a long challenging journey...from adapting myself to the syllabus...my 1st sem was relly packed n hectic..so mant things to memorize n study..n i did quite bad..in fact 60% of the whole batch did bad..pointer was relly low..like seriously low..2nd sem was much more better..not that packed schedule n kinda interesting..learning bout the nervous system n also endocrine..love dat the most..hematology n immunology(blood n immune system) was ok..but alot 2 memorize bout anemia..thalassemia..AIDS n stuffz...really confusing since theres lotz of types of anemia...i hate the most is methabolic system...where u have 2 learn bout the processes in the body..gluconeogenesis..glycolysis n stuffz..damn boring! results were not good n not bad..well,..i bother 2 get 3 pointer n above..i just need 2 graduate n get the hell outta here...my next sem will b learning bout reproduction..growth n development..they say this is the hardest 1..i dont relly like this syllabus since in high school..not interested at all...n due 2 some personal experience i relly dont look 4ward 4 dis sem...i just hope time pass fast..n hope 2 pass this 3rd sem too...for now another 4.5 years to go...hmm..so long~~


p/s wish i cud bring my AC..toilet..matress n bed bck....life wud b even better!

MaLaYSia...the loveliest country ever...^_^

People think studying abroad is awesome...i used 2 think the same way..just cant wait 2 get outta dis country...malaysia is just too boring..i even felt shamed 2 b a malaysian.....but seriously...when ur away from ur country its just too hard 2 adapt...feel so alien n weird...thou the place is not bad..i thought only me feeling dis way but no..even my frends studying in russia..australia n romania feel dis way! so im not the weird 1...n im only in indonesia...dats super near 2 malaysia n the culture is almost the same...but still...there is sumthing in malaysia dat v cant find in our new places..n i have no idea wats dat...i really miss my country alot..n once im back 4 holidays..i dont wish to go back...i realise how ungrateful i was...god creates peace in malaysia..no war..no tsunami..no earthquake..no hurricane..just some flood dats it..v r so blessed actually...how safe v r here compare 2 other countries in dis world...although v r not as advance as US or Singapore...but..our lifestyle is just enough 2 live our daily life..v r not dat kuno..although our government is quite messy 4 now..but still..thats just a lil conflict which all countries have 2 face...so peeps...b grateful n feel proud of ur country..i can say this loud n clear..IM PROUD 2 B A MALAYSIAN...=D




p/s - donno wat got in2 me 2nite..suddenly being patriotic..mayB its the fact dat im going bck next week! n i wish peace between Malaysia n Indonesia 4 our benefits...

Killer Headache..get off me!!!!!

Having a bad headache n sorethroath....n feeling abit fever-ish...argghh!! n worst of all..i have 2 get up b4 7.30 2 go 4 my driving thingy.. ive been waking up around 2pm these days( i know..i know..makruh puase..but i go 2 bed around 4am n then after subuh all i sleep back..ok ryte?? :p) n now suddenly 7 am??? hmm...1 thing i discovered..never LIE especially in this holly month...karma will just hit u b4 u cud even realise..hmm..just saying..thats wat happened 2 me...oh god..please 4give me 4 being bad..i was just playing around actually..just wanted 2 prank ppl..but then...its still wrong i realise...so so sorry...=(..if U forgive me...please make my headache n sorethroat be gone soon...pretty please?^_^

Latin Madness 1 : Felipe Colombo

Man...i used 2 b super duper unconditionally in love wid him...hes like my so-called 1st love of all d latin hunks! hes not dat hot now thou..but when he was a teenager...DARN! cud never took my eyes off him...if u guys know me since my schooldays..u guys wud know how in love i was wid my pipe..in fact some of u knows him bcoz of me kecoh-ing!! hahaha..well now..he has a child named Aurora who coincedencely look like me when i was a baby( im not bullshit-ing )..i still like him now but of coz not as crazy as my schooldays..ppl say ull never forget ur st love..bwahahaha..perasan case..

Life cudnt get anymore AWKWARD..

Speaking of awkwardness..this is 1 of the feelings i relly dont like..well of coz..evry1 dont...the feeling where ur brain gera jammed n u dont know how u shud react the next sec n u definitely made urself look soooo stuuupid n there are lotz of things going on ur mind..u feel like banging ur head 2 the wall...or just drowning in missisipi river..or even shoot urself 4 being so dumb! arghh...darn! 1 of the awkward-est moment that i cud rmmber was recently..bout 3 or 4 weeks back...i was suppose 2 meet a frend whom i had not seen for more than a year...i din wanna meet him actually but he kept on insisting..n since im in kl so i thought y not just have a cup of coffee...i was suppose 2 meet him the nite b4 but then i canceled it last minute coz i felt unsecure..he maybe he was kinda upset...but hey..do i look like i care...u wanna meet me ryte..so anyway..i met him the next day..he was asking wether i wud b alone n i said yeah..n of coz i expect him 2 b alone too ut guess wat...i saw him sitting on a bench wid 5 of his frends! yes..5!! i was like WTH!! i stunted there 4 a sec...but then i just act cool n walk towards them..i sad hi 2 1 of his frends coz ive met him b4 too..b4 i cud even sit down my fren asked me.."wat happend 2 u"..i was like.."y??wat?? im fine."then he said.."no..ur looking fat!"(~,~) can u believe that! he din even let me sit yet..didnt even say hi!! my god..i was relly pissed off...i feel like slapping his face n punching him hard till he forgets his name!! i mean..im not mad coz he called me fat coz  i m n i dont give a damn..but from the last time i saw him..i lost bout 12kg!! he didn call me fat dat time!! such a dog...anyway bck 2 d story..then i sat next to him(controlling my anger).v just sat there for almost 5 minutes doing nothing..he was like talking 2 his frends n talking to me at d same time..i felt like a jerk...then i rmmbered my fren so i figured 2 text her just 2 ask howz shes doing since it was raining heavily wid thunderstorm..n of coz im gonna tell him wat that son of b**tch said...so i texted her " F**k him man! he said that im fat!! im so stressed!! ;/" after sending the text i turn 2 d other side..just looking around n stuffz...
Then..........


my frend (H) : ehemm..ehemm
   i acted like i din hear him n continue looking 2wards d otherside
H : hey..*smile* i think u shud check ur phone coz i think u sent some wrong messege??
   instantly i got wat he said...i was like SHOOT!! my faced became pale..then it turned red!!i was imagining myself jumping off niagara falls...i dint know how 2 react...wat shud i do next??? but thank god i din freaked out..just chill n relax..then i turned to him n he was showing me his phone...the text messege he got from ME...u guys shud know the text ryte?! the only thing i cud thought about was to just smile..so i smiled..the sweetest smile i cud make...
ME : ahahaha..din realised that..guess u shud just delete that.since its not 4 u ryte? come..ill delete it 4 u..(^;^)v
  i grabbed his phone(gelabah-ly) n deleted the text...pheww..i turned bck 2 him n wat else...smile..he smile 2.
H : ahaha..i think u shud resent it 2 ur fren ryte?
ME : yeah of coz...ill foward it ryte now..*showing him my phone..messege delivered to J*
H : good..
me:yeah..all good...i guess i shud call her here
H: y??
ME: since v r sitting here...not doing anything or going anywhere..ryte?


i was super sarcastic 2 him...padan muke!! then he said something 2 his frends n just woke up..he said "come"..haha..i just followed him..in the car...we talked n stuffz..din go anywhere actually coz was raining heavily n bad traffic..plus i need 2 get bck b4 8 coz i have a bus to catch at 10..v talked bout the things happened last year n he crap bout some of his life philosophy..kinda boring..sempat lagi i ngorat the guy in the next car! hahaha..but i talked alot! haha..pity him..at the end..after parking his car..i just get down n walk away..i din say nothing! not even bye! haha..mean ryte...but he din say hi ryte?? i just walk off to my fren n sit wid her..i feel relieved coz i can balas dendam 2 him..haha...im not gonna c him anymore..that wud be d last time!




P/S - talking bout weight huh..i used to b nearly obese last year..gosh!! but still..need 2 loose some fats..my mum said.."dont be fat..nobody will marry u later"..hahaha..i dont care! im gonna have my own life wid a good career in d future insyallah..