B0red...L0nely..n s0 s0 s0......*speechless*!!

Owh me Lord!! i seriously cant take this pressure...im so darnly bored...wat 2 do???hwaa~~~how awesoe my life used to be...=( tomm...lotz of my uni mates going bck 2 malaysia...n im stuck here! can u imagine?! wat m i suppose 2 do here without my frends...yeah..of coz..ROTT!! soooo...saddd....btw..i just realized that im a good spy..brilliant actually...!! no doubt...i heard bout some rumors going on...n i actually dig the truth out...damn proud of myself...its like how hard u try 2 cover up in fb or wat...maybe u can cheat others...but im WAYYYY to smart 4 all those bullshit! i dont understand some ppl on dis earth...if ur trying 4 some1...or maybe in a relationship wid that some1..y wud u actually hide it...just shut up n b normal...dats relly lame...like seriously..n i hate it when a guy...i mean good guy..nerd or geek or...good la..try 2 act as if he is cool n flirty...i find it relly disgusting...just b urself...y must act..at d end of d day..they doesnt react the cool way...n make things wayyy complicated...haizz..just pouring some of my thoughts....im damn bored as i told u earlier..ll_ll

Random-ness.....

well well...wat have v here...quite been a long time since i updated my blog...well..was kinda busy wid my studies n exams..n here i m today...at this very second..trying 2 figure out wat 2 write... *blank* hmm...cant think of anyting..im just gonna pour out wat im feeling ryte now...u c..ive been keeping this inside me 4 like..i  donnow...57 years??*dont mind me..im kinda obsessed wid d number 57* i cant take dis pressure anymore...i m just TOO bored here in medan...i have no idea wat 2 do..its not that theres no nice place around..there are of coz..but im alredy bored wid all the places....n hey..i have 2 b here 4 another 4.5 years...gosh! ok thats a thing...one more thing is...im just sooo lonely...compare 2 my life in KL...it was just too awesome...no1 cud imagine how gr8 it was...its like...perfect...true definition of perfect..i got wat i want...eall d attention i need...all d food i love etc etc etc...evry1 around me was just too gooodd.....until now..i cant imagine how life cud change that much! like it just rotate 180 degrees...totally! darn...evrytime i think bout dis..makes me emo n sad...i really hate my life now...seriously...no joke at all...im just too lonely...like sooo lonely...so intimidated...n the ppl around me here is just too..i donno how 2 describe...they r just...hmm...sad case...okay...i shall stop crapping now..but at least i feel relieved...now u guys shud know...how things wont last...it will either get better..or worst which in my case...nothing is permanent...have 2 live through it...

EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!

okay...dis is 1 of my awesome yet scaryyy experience ever! 4 d 1st time i experienced earthquake here in medan last tuesday if im not mistaken..on 6th sept 2011...it happened around 1am n of coz i was sleeping like an angel...i rmmbered i was in my dream..such an awesome 1..i was in carribean sunbathing..can u imagine the sun...sea n waves...suddenly out of nowhere my sis woke me up...i got shock of my life of coz..thank god my soul didnt got lost anywhere n return 2 my body..i heard ppl outside of my room running towards the gate n they sound worried...n the freakiest thing ever 4 me is when i heard the chickens..they went haywire n mad i swear! clucking as if they were attacked by some monster..i din relly felt the tremble actually...since i was in "carribean" i thought the tremble was the wave or sumthing..din know it was real..so i still din know it was an earthquake..i seriously thought it was some beast or monster attacking the chickens...i saw my sisters getting off their beds..thats when i start running to the door too..only then my sis said it was an earthquake...i was searching my flip flop but they were not there..i knew my sister took it..then i was like..screw the slippers just run! but then i was thinking who knows the situation gets bad..then how wud i suppose to walk around bare feet..so i came bck...then i rmmbered my pet,Maurice is in its huge cage in d room...but i was thinking..how to walk around carrying a cage..so humiliating ryte? n owh..i forgot 1 of my bestie in her room..i shouted her name n then she came out..then bck 2 Maurice..take it or leave it..i love my baby alot..i cant just leave my child ryte..wat kind of mother is dat! by the time i figure out wat 2 do..evrything came bck normal...so i just entered my room n straight bck 2 my bed hoping 2 continue my sunbath in carribean..but of coz din happen...~_~

My 1st Eid in Foreign Land...

okay...1st of all...i realized that ppl actually do ready my blog..i thought no1 will actually read it coz of my craps n stuffz...thanx peeps!! really appreciate u guys...n im sure by now u guys already realized that my life is full wid dramas n me humiliating myself...argghh...so yeah..including my eid celebration dis year..its the 1st time me celebrating raya in indonesia..without my family...stranded in a strange environment..but i still wanna make it a good n memorable 1..my theory is..'wherever yasmeen is being banished..shell have fun'..so yeah..that morning i wore my brand new baju raya*semangat*..i even made my frends wear baju kurong...the plan was 2 go 2 the malaysia embassy coz theres open house..so i can eat..n eat...n eat!!!!!so..off v go..n when v reached the embassy..guess wat...no celebration at all!!! its closed!! can u imagie??!! heartbroken 2 d max!! i rmmber the night b4 i was so excited 2 eat the rendang n lemang all...evrything just blown up! Feeling depressed..me n my frends went 2 d mall..coz all of the shops r closed..only in the mall v can actually find food...*weird place!* in the mall..i swear i feel like a star!! evry single eyes were on us...i was like..wat??never seen people in an 'extra unique' outfit b4 ha?? even when v sit in the cafe..ppl still turn around 2 look at us..so annoying!!..i feel like a clown..but 2 b more positive..i keep on saying 2 my frends.."they think v r the kardashians..so chill.."v spent a long time in d cafe..figuring out wat to do next..im already so depressed coz i was eating some noodles when my family bck in malaysia r eating ketupat!.i feel like running away 2 some farland!*drama mode on!* then out of nowhere..v planed 2 take a train n just travel 2 somewhere far 4rm medan...walk around n then comebck...when i say train..its not like LRR or KTM k..train like a real train..the old one...so v hopped in a cab n ask him bout the trains..costs..n scheduless...finally v made our decision 2 go to a place called Tebing Tinggi..4 hours from medan..god knows wheres that..n how is it..but yeah..v still wana go..when v reached the station...i stared at it 4 like 57 secs..it looks so.....weird..so v told d cab guy 2 wait 4 us..when i entered inside..again...the kardashians came..! evry1 turned 2 us n stared..even the kids! the train station is soooooooo packed!! n hot!!..so..ewwww....such a long queue..the train is at 4pm n its already 2pm..then i feel so rimas n pressured wid the attention!*cheh..poyo* v went bck 2 d cab..the guy was literally laughing at us! he must b thinking.."lame children.."so yeah..i was already tired n exhausted...then my sis sent an address of the open house*still havent give up wid my rendang* we went 2 d place but v have no idea where is the exact spot..v made some dramas again bcoz v were shy 2 ask the seniors..lolz..at last v asked n followed them..guess wat?? v were the only ones wearing baju kurung..evry1 were waering normal t-shirt n jeans..oh ma god!! y?? y??? y??? i cant get anymore embaressed than this ryte?! ate abit n then lepak 4 awhile..then v head bck home.....n reach home happily ever after..~The End~

Day 5 in Medan..I Survived!!! *_*

Hey heyyy...just got my internet connection here...in case u guys din know..2day wud b the 5th day im here in medan...n finally i adapted myself over here..the day i landed was relly bad..saying goodbye 2 my parents in d airport..i was relly sad..but my 3 besties was wid me...so in d other hand..i felt happy...plus im so excited 2 c my baby maurice(slow loris)..when i board the plan..i relly wished i din have 2 go back..i was tearing slightly when the lane took off..n when it landed too,..yerr...so unhappy! looking at the ppl's faces n the roads...vehicles..angkutss n becasss...damn! i felt even worst!!! but wat to..i have 2 complete my studies...another 4.5 years..hope it will pass fast! The next day i woke up..i still cant believe that im here....so do the next 2 days..but when i woke up yest...i feel much better..i mean..i can take the pressure that im here not at home!! so yeah...its relly boring here of coz...me n my frends passses time by going out 2 d mall..playing monopoly n watch movies....so yeah..typical...tomorrow is eid..n me being here..away from my family n country..is relly sad n depressing..thou i have my eldest sister n besties here..but still...the environment is diffrent! v have plans tomm...i hope i cud have a gr8 eid here..wish me luck!!

p/s - theres dis annoying chickens beside my room..n it is cuckoo-ing 24/7..can u imagine!!!! even 3am..i feel like slaughtering them alive n make rendang 4 tommorow....n owhh...almost forget the weird 'possesed' cat that meows in the middle of d nite in front of my door as if it is giving birth or wat..shock me 2 death!!! Am i supppose 2 tolerate dis madness 4 4.5 years??? goodluck to me!! @_@

There goes my plans...off 2 d trash! =(

hmmm...me n my friends have planned sumthing awesome 2 celebrate 2012 new year..gonna b a huge 1..n memorable..total awesome-ness..FUN FUN n FUN!!! v've been planning since 3 months back...n i relly look 4ward 4 it...but..unintentionally...out of nowhere..there will b sum important function during that time!! n i HAVE 2 attend it..no choice...darn~~ so depressing..imagining all the fun im suppose 2 have...all gone..not gonna happen...dis is soooo sad! i relly hope in dis week..some miracle wud happen...so they will change the date 4 the function..pleassseeee.....=(








p/s - maybe its just a sign from god 4 me 2 b good..*positive*

Latin Madness 2 : Rodrigo Guirao Diaz

This hot argentinian guy relly took me off d ground since the 1st time i saw him...hes super hot especially when he smiles..his eyes too...luv d colour...wish to marry him...thou he 12 years elder than me...^_^

Adios 1st year...2nd year..please b nice...

Done wid my 1st year in U n it had been a long challenging journey...from adapting myself to the syllabus...my 1st sem was relly packed n hectic..so mant things to memorize n study..n i did quite bad..in fact 60% of the whole batch did bad..pointer was relly low..like seriously low..2nd sem was much more better..not that packed schedule n kinda interesting..learning bout the nervous system n also endocrine..love dat the most..hematology n immunology(blood n immune system) was ok..but alot 2 memorize bout anemia..thalassemia..AIDS n stuffz...really confusing since theres lotz of types of anemia...i hate the most is methabolic system...where u have 2 learn bout the processes in the body..gluconeogenesis..glycolysis n stuffz..damn boring! results were not good n not bad..well,..i bother 2 get 3 pointer n above..i just need 2 graduate n get the hell outta here...my next sem will b learning bout reproduction..growth n development..they say this is the hardest 1..i dont relly like this syllabus since in high school..not interested at all...n due 2 some personal experience i relly dont look 4ward 4 dis sem...i just hope time pass fast..n hope 2 pass this 3rd sem too...for now another 4.5 years to go...hmm..so long~~


p/s wish i cud bring my AC..toilet..matress n bed bck....life wud b even better!

MaLaYSia...the loveliest country ever...^_^

People think studying abroad is awesome...i used 2 think the same way..just cant wait 2 get outta dis country...malaysia is just too boring..i even felt shamed 2 b a malaysian.....but seriously...when ur away from ur country its just too hard 2 adapt...feel so alien n weird...thou the place is not bad..i thought only me feeling dis way but no..even my frends studying in russia..australia n romania feel dis way! so im not the weird 1...n im only in indonesia...dats super near 2 malaysia n the culture is almost the same...but still...there is sumthing in malaysia dat v cant find in our new places..n i have no idea wats dat...i really miss my country alot..n once im back 4 holidays..i dont wish to go back...i realise how ungrateful i was...god creates peace in malaysia..no war..no tsunami..no earthquake..no hurricane..just some flood dats it..v r so blessed actually...how safe v r here compare 2 other countries in dis world...although v r not as advance as US or Singapore...but..our lifestyle is just enough 2 live our daily life..v r not dat kuno..although our government is quite messy 4 now..but still..thats just a lil conflict which all countries have 2 face...so peeps...b grateful n feel proud of ur country..i can say this loud n clear..IM PROUD 2 B A MALAYSIAN...=D




p/s - donno wat got in2 me 2nite..suddenly being patriotic..mayB its the fact dat im going bck next week! n i wish peace between Malaysia n Indonesia 4 our benefits...

Killer Headache..get off me!!!!!

Having a bad headache n sorethroath....n feeling abit fever-ish...argghh!! n worst of all..i have 2 get up b4 7.30 2 go 4 my driving thingy.. ive been waking up around 2pm these days( i know..i know..makruh puase..but i go 2 bed around 4am n then after subuh all i sleep back..ok ryte?? :p) n now suddenly 7 am??? hmm...1 thing i discovered..never LIE especially in this holly month...karma will just hit u b4 u cud even realise..hmm..just saying..thats wat happened 2 me...oh god..please 4give me 4 being bad..i was just playing around actually..just wanted 2 prank ppl..but then...its still wrong i realise...so so sorry...=(..if U forgive me...please make my headache n sorethroat be gone soon...pretty please?^_^

Latin Madness 1 : Felipe Colombo

Man...i used 2 b super duper unconditionally in love wid him...hes like my so-called 1st love of all d latin hunks! hes not dat hot now thou..but when he was a teenager...DARN! cud never took my eyes off him...if u guys know me since my schooldays..u guys wud know how in love i was wid my pipe..in fact some of u knows him bcoz of me kecoh-ing!! hahaha..well now..he has a child named Aurora who coincedencely look like me when i was a baby( im not bullshit-ing )..i still like him now but of coz not as crazy as my schooldays..ppl say ull never forget ur st love..bwahahaha..perasan case..

Life cudnt get anymore AWKWARD..

Speaking of awkwardness..this is 1 of the feelings i relly dont like..well of coz..evry1 dont...the feeling where ur brain gera jammed n u dont know how u shud react the next sec n u definitely made urself look soooo stuuupid n there are lotz of things going on ur mind..u feel like banging ur head 2 the wall...or just drowning in missisipi river..or even shoot urself 4 being so dumb! arghh...darn! 1 of the awkward-est moment that i cud rmmber was recently..bout 3 or 4 weeks back...i was suppose 2 meet a frend whom i had not seen for more than a year...i din wanna meet him actually but he kept on insisting..n since im in kl so i thought y not just have a cup of coffee...i was suppose 2 meet him the nite b4 but then i canceled it last minute coz i felt unsecure..he maybe he was kinda upset...but hey..do i look like i care...u wanna meet me ryte..so anyway..i met him the next day..he was asking wether i wud b alone n i said yeah..n of coz i expect him 2 b alone too ut guess wat...i saw him sitting on a bench wid 5 of his frends! yes..5!! i was like WTH!! i stunted there 4 a sec...but then i just act cool n walk towards them..i sad hi 2 1 of his frends coz ive met him b4 too..b4 i cud even sit down my fren asked me.."wat happend 2 u"..i was like.."y??wat?? im fine."then he said.."no..ur looking fat!"(~,~) can u believe that! he din even let me sit yet..didnt even say hi!! my god..i was relly pissed off...i feel like slapping his face n punching him hard till he forgets his name!! i mean..im not mad coz he called me fat coz  i m n i dont give a damn..but from the last time i saw him..i lost bout 12kg!! he didn call me fat dat time!! such a dog...anyway bck 2 d story..then i sat next to him(controlling my anger).v just sat there for almost 5 minutes doing nothing..he was like talking 2 his frends n talking to me at d same time..i felt like a jerk...then i rmmbered my fren so i figured 2 text her just 2 ask howz shes doing since it was raining heavily wid thunderstorm..n of coz im gonna tell him wat that son of b**tch said...so i texted her " F**k him man! he said that im fat!! im so stressed!! ;/" after sending the text i turn 2 d other side..just looking around n stuffz...
Then..........


my frend (H) : ehemm..ehemm
   i acted like i din hear him n continue looking 2wards d otherside
H : hey..*smile* i think u shud check ur phone coz i think u sent some wrong messege??
   instantly i got wat he said...i was like SHOOT!! my faced became pale..then it turned red!!i was imagining myself jumping off niagara falls...i dint know how 2 react...wat shud i do next??? but thank god i din freaked out..just chill n relax..then i turned to him n he was showing me his phone...the text messege he got from ME...u guys shud know the text ryte?! the only thing i cud thought about was to just smile..so i smiled..the sweetest smile i cud make...
ME : ahahaha..din realised that..guess u shud just delete that.since its not 4 u ryte? come..ill delete it 4 u..(^;^)v
  i grabbed his phone(gelabah-ly) n deleted the text...pheww..i turned bck 2 him n wat else...smile..he smile 2.
H : ahaha..i think u shud resent it 2 ur fren ryte?
ME : yeah of coz...ill foward it ryte now..*showing him my phone..messege delivered to J*
H : good..
me:yeah..all good...i guess i shud call her here
H: y??
ME: since v r sitting here...not doing anything or going anywhere..ryte?


i was super sarcastic 2 him...padan muke!! then he said something 2 his frends n just woke up..he said "come"..haha..i just followed him..in the car...we talked n stuffz..din go anywhere actually coz was raining heavily n bad traffic..plus i need 2 get bck b4 8 coz i have a bus to catch at 10..v talked bout the things happened last year n he crap bout some of his life philosophy..kinda boring..sempat lagi i ngorat the guy in the next car! hahaha..but i talked alot! haha..pity him..at the end..after parking his car..i just get down n walk away..i din say nothing! not even bye! haha..mean ryte...but he din say hi ryte?? i just walk off to my fren n sit wid her..i feel relieved coz i can balas dendam 2 him..haha...im not gonna c him anymore..that wud be d last time!




P/S - talking bout weight huh..i used to b nearly obese last year..gosh!! but still..need 2 loose some fats..my mum said.."dont be fat..nobody will marry u later"..hahaha..i dont care! im gonna have my own life wid a good career in d future insyallah..

Haha...wat a Coincidence!!!

NiCE...

That Girl..!!

Suddenly i recalled bout a girl who ever came in2 my life...well...now shes gone..I met her last year during college time..i cant remember the exact day i 1st met her..i was in her house that day..shes really spoilt n what ppl say "gone-case"...spoilt as in...REALLY spoilt..she smokes..she drinks..she goes clubbing almost evryday..she sleeps wid guys n all..so many ppl told me not 2 b dis kind of girl coz she mite influence me 2wards the bad side...but me n 3 of my frends didnt care..shes nice to us..she spare us food..she share her stories wid us....which were relly sad..n she even gave us advices..u guyz must b thinking that she advises us to have fun  n b like her ryte? but no...she doesnt want us to be like her...i still cud remember the exact words she said "ive screwed up my life...dont be like me...be good"..n 1 more advise she gve me personally " NEVER REGRET wid wat uve done...live ur present n try to make ur future"..wow...i was relly amazed that time...she has a really bad past..being n orphan somemore..shes like the toughest girl ive ever met in my life..n i really salude her for that..But things changed a few months later...v got 2 know that she actlly backstabbed us...she told shitz bout us to other ppl...i was relly dissapointed when i got 2 know her true colour n the things she did...shes EVIL!!she lied 2 1of my frend n used his money ALOT!! n she almost cost a happily married couple 2 divorce..n she did alot more..its sad to think that v actually helped her when she got kicked out of her house..v actually did ALOT to her housematez thinking that shes the innocent one n they are a bunch of animalz with no heart..v actually almost kill them wid our own hands(n im gona b a doctor! can u imagine that!!) So...after knowing evrything me,my frends, n her housematez plot a plan...to get her kicked out of college..this time it involves her teachers n headmasters..n were v like witnesses 4 the things she did..after the whole thing she was dropped out of her college n sent back 2 where she belongs..i still rmmber the last time when i saw her..she looked at me n wave goodbye...that was scaryy..me n my frends were traumatized 4 about 3 days...my mum got 2 know bout this n she took me straight bck home n of coz i get loadz of scolding...neways...after a long time...when i think back..was a good experience..i actually miss her ryte now...thou she backstabbed us..she was nice to us..n her advises too..


p/s - who knows if shes reading this ryte now..i have 1 thing 2 tell her..I WISH 2 C U AGAIN!

LiFe AiNt ALL ABouT GeTTiNG WaT U WaNT.....

Hmmm....well..im kinda in a bad mood ryte now..but no worries..its not like im gonna slash sum1 to dead or wat....u know...the feeling when u really desire sumthing badly n u thought u gonna get it...well..ur 100% sure u gonna have it...but...the next sec u know that UR NOT GONNA GET IT!! darn...dat feeling is 1 of the worst feeling i cud remmber (apart from the 1st month i came 2 indonesia last year!!)...im not the type that will cry n mourn bout the bad things happen to me..i wont blame god n ask why me??wwhhhyyy?? instead..i wud rather pick myself up n just face that i cant get evrything i want..if like dat...life wudnt b a challenge...evry1 has their ups n downs ryte...like a wheel...soo...the point is...be grateful n NEVER blame god...He has sumthing better 2 offer u next time..thats for sure..^_^


P/S - 1 of the worst experience was the ragging i had 2 go through 2 enter my U...there lotz of touching..lotz of KISSING...wid frogs n worms i mean...yucckkkzzz...(ll_ll)

I D0 BELIEVE IN FAIRIES....

yaya im gona b 19..but hey..its not wrong 4 me 2 believe in fairies..n duh~~ i know that they doesnt exist..but..idk...i wish they were..n i wish im a fairy...hehehe..perasan case...anyway..i m a fairy..in my own world called EZPERANSA..in dat world...everything is noble n beautiful...full wid colours n humbleness...no criminal..no murderer...no strip dancer 4 sure! evry1 has their own beauty...no1 judge any1 there..u can live ur life the way u want...n god is there blessing evry single creature He created...im a WISDOM FAIRY...i have lotz of firends..there is thena d tooth fairy...dayana d fair fairy...jessie d earth fairy..hehe..i have a lil rainbow pony living wid me n her name is Vera...n owh in that world god never created any guys..they dont exist! so no1 can harm all of us..v can leave in dis world freely without any fear wherever v go...without any eyes staring at us wildly!n the only love existed is the love of friendship..n 4 sure no racism..evry1 is same...n evry1 respects each other...inspite of ur skin color..or ur beauty..man..how i wish dis world of mine existed..


p/s - ezperansa is the world i created when i was 8/9 y old..n i barely rmmber it..but i still rmmber my little mushroom house which the walls will change colour depends on my mood..n my little vera i found in d cloud forrest...i miss my cottoncandy tree next 2 my house..

Well Well~~

So...Well..dis is my 1st post 4 dis blog...so wat can i say..Hope u guys love dis..in dis blog..imma write bout things going on in ma head...watever..good 1 or bad 1 or weird 1(mostly)..anyway feel free 2 follow me n comments too...

p/s : dis is my 2nd blog..the 1st is full wid secrets..dark ones..muahahah...curious eh?? well..too bad..im not gona let any1 read that..except 4 meh!!